A hard day for Cully

Cully, I'm sorry you had such a difficult day. I saw that you tried so hard to do what we asked you to do. At nap time you fussed and kicked your closet doors but when I came into your room and spoke to you I saw that you listened to me. I  told you that I worked very hard to build this house for my family and  that I did not want you to treat my house this way. I asked you to stop and you did. We connected and you knew that I was asking you to listen to my heart felt concerns.
 I had to leave the house today to take a step back from all that was going on. I needed my space today. I felt cheap and selfish but I know that I am deserving of my own space. I came home several hours later refreshed and able. You had a difficult day and so did I. Tomorrow will be better and when I return home from work you will sit on my lap and we will watch Barney together and find that connection again.
 Damn this autistic stuff and everything else you have been dealing with and my hopes are high that we have a good ole afternoon just chill'n and hanging together.
   By the way...... have you noticed the way your big brothers have been involving you in everything? You are a very lucky kiddo. You are one very loved little boy.  And you're mine.  Xxxxxoooooo
 I'm sorry life is so hard. I love you so much.