Good job boy

Great job today son. You are truly an amazing young man. I'm sorry you did not feel well but am so happy that you went to bed so well.
 Thank you for the back rub today. I thought it was quite kind of you to lift my shirt and rub my back. When you reached around and lifted my hand to your level and kissed it I knew right away you were showing your feelings and that is a wonderful thing. I am so happy to learn what is going on in your mind.
 When you had me put Barney on the Ipad today and were so caught up in it that you ran your shoulder into the edge of the door I was happy to kiss it all better and hug you. Even happier that you let me.
In the end.... Today.... Daddy 100.... Autism zero......  Still no seizures too!
 Your mom and I spoke about plans for your future. I know you have a wonderful family that will always be there for you but your mom mentioned the thought that you may one day be on your own and take care of yourself. I felt bad that I had not considered that possibility. You have amazed us in so many ways. One way or another you will be just fine.
 Love ya.....
Daddy

A hard day for Cully

Cully, I'm sorry you had such a difficult day. I saw that you tried so hard to do what we asked you to do. At nap time you fussed and kicked your closet doors but when I came into your room and spoke to you I saw that you listened to me. I  told you that I worked very hard to build this house for my family and  that I did not want you to treat my house this way. I asked you to stop and you did. We connected and you knew that I was asking you to listen to my heart felt concerns.
 I had to leave the house today to take a step back from all that was going on. I needed my space today. I felt cheap and selfish but I know that I am deserving of my own space. I came home several hours later refreshed and able. You had a difficult day and so did I. Tomorrow will be better and when I return home from work you will sit on my lap and we will watch Barney together and find that connection again.
 Damn this autistic stuff and everything else you have been dealing with and my hopes are high that we have a good ole afternoon just chill'n and hanging together.
   By the way...... have you noticed the way your big brothers have been involving you in everything? You are a very lucky kiddo. You are one very loved little boy.  And you're mine.  Xxxxxoooooo
 I'm sorry life is so hard. I love you so much.